Identity Crisis

I am having an identity crisis.

Here's the thing-  I am still not used to my new last name Devenney.  I love it, but I'm not used to it.  I mean, who wouldn't want to just LATCH on to this guy's last name??

I pee a little when I look at this.  This, this is what life is made of. THIS IS THE FATHER OF MY CHILDREN.  But anyway.. 

AS I WAS SAYING...

I was at the dry-cleaners just the other day and the lady asked for my last name.  I paused because I wasn't really sure what to say!  Do I say Killpack or do I say Devenney??  It's like I don't identify with either of them right now. What do I do??

I was sitting with my friend the other day and I asked her to text me something and I saw that she put in Emily D. and my first thought was Who is that??  

When my sister-in-law, Tory, and I go to the temple they ask for our last names and she says Killpack while I say Devenney and I get so confused because she is saying my last name and I am saying some other name I'd never heard of before I married into it!  Now if that just isn't the longest run-on sentence in the world... 

I keep asking Cory, "Now, HOW do you say our last name again?" I'm still not entirely sure. :)  When I look at the spelling of it I don't see it how it sounds and so it confuses me.  It's pronounced DaVinny/DaVenney.  Although, I still don't know because Corny won't give me a straight answer.  He thinks those two things are the same.  So imagine me walking around with a last name that I'm still not quite sure how to pronounce! I'm such a linguistic learner and the fact that it is not spelled the way that sounds messes with my head. 

This is a serious matter, I tell you.  I asked Corny how he would feel if he all-of-the-sudden was Cory Killpack.  It's a total adjustment! I laugh when I think of him taking my last name.  Corny Killpack kind of has a ring to it, wouldn't you say?? 

I think I'll just go last name-less like Brandy or Cher.  Life seems easier that way and it always keeps people guessing.  Such mystery! 

Point of the story is that I am somewhere in-between Killpack and Devenney.  Luckily, I get to keep both families.

I love my people. 

But, somebody please tell me it gets easier!!!!!

M